~ 7/22/2005 12:52:00 AM ~
Friday, July 22, 2005
[DerriCk's in!!!!!!]
YEs YES YES YES YES YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
=) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =)
YaY!!!! Derrick's in!!!!!! he's in!!!! HE GOT IN!!!!
Yea man!!! derrick roX so so so muCH!!!!
omg..
y do i like him so mucH!!!!
i dunno..
he's too gd to be true..
HE's SimplY wOndErful....
it was so sCary watching the Results show...
i was so afraid that the audience didn't noe how to judge singers by their voices..
i was frightened that fans will vote desperately for the lousier contastants...
now i noe singaporeans recognise a talent when they hear one...
bOth deRricK and KellY are thru!!!!
oh yEAh!!!! =D
this is GreAT!! it's WondErful... FantaBulouS!!! YEAh!!!!!
kelly's really a great singer.. she was an unexpected dropout from last wk's com... and this time she got back in!! if she din.. i wouldnt noe wad to say..
kelly had the highest score of 40.5 !!!!!
KeLly Rox too!!! but i LovE deRricK much more... haahz
gO deRriCK!!!!!
haiz..
i feel so evil..
i was shouting the contastant i wanted out for every round of elimination...
i was so scared it would be derrick!!!
1st guy out! - sebastian!! yea.. it's correct..
2nd guy out! - haGen.. hahaz.. i liked him more today.. cuz the courage he showed was gd.. hagen takes this com over seriously and this lost is probably great.. but i guess he shd be self awared tt there's much better singers ard.. anw he was funny when he said he hope the media would spot other talents in him.. and he doesnt mind doing advertisements.. especially for daLi toothpaste!! ahahz.. ok.. he DOes have a nice set of straight white teeth!! ahahz
3rd guy... as the computer jumpped.. my heart was jumping too.. it was to choose who would be eliminated.. and i was screaming M2 M2 222222!!!!!!!! i tot i almost saw derrIck's pictures stopped... wah kao can die wan leh..!!!!
Big PhEW~ when it was Leon!!!..
no.. it was BIg JOY actually!!! i was ElaTED!!! i was ExcitEd!!! i was RElieveD!!!!
but den again.. it's really sad to say gdbye to leon.. he was a great singer too...
after all the "fights" in the forum with derrick's and leon's fans...
i realised tt derrick and leon are actually now gd friendS!!
DerricK thankEd Leon for treating him as a teammate all these time.. and he was really thankful.. derrick's a damn hell nice person la.. Argh... sad.. he doesnt noe me!! =(
wahahz.. nvm.. i shall mo mo de zhi chi ni!!!
ah!!! i wont be able to slp already la!!!
derricK all the WAY!!!! ur the beST!!! u Are My SUperSTAR!!!!
haha.. tml muz go sch suan pei wen liaoz.. hehe.. toLd u derrick would get in!!
and he is really better than leon la!! well.. i hope ur not too upset about it..! haahz!!
hmm.. so many ppl supports derrick sia.. i put his name on my msn nick.. and i get so many ppl msging me about him!!! hahaz
Derrick's sincerity has really touched everyone of us... =)
~ 7/21/2005 10:22:00 PM ~
Thursday, July 21, 2005
[SoCcer ManiA]
tml's the girl's soccer mania!!!
irritating.. this afternoon got the msg tt it was only for guys..
juz now received another saying we can join...
ah crap... chun yi's grandad passed away.. and yelin's sick!!! hope they both will be ok soon...
we're now desperately looking for ppl... who to call who to call.. there's so many ppl to ask.. but they're all not soccer fans!!!! =( ...
k let's see...currently.. got
- me
- shi min
- hui li
- zhi jun
- yan qing
rachel (now she sAYS SHE Cant!!)
aurelia?? crystal??? wah shit la.. how to form team lidat!!!!
wad.. den dun play soccer and play captain's ball??
hmm.. k i dun mind... but no!!! i mind not being able to play soccer after since we've agreed to play for so long already!!!!!!
but i also wanna play cap ball leh.. so damn long nv play already!!!
played a bit of frisbee today.. haha.. damn fun~!! hope pe can get to play...
well anw had shooting com today... me ami and wara in a grp.. under pistol.. i shot a score of 45/100.. eh not bad liao loh.. considering i 1st time shoot.. and min ning said it's quite gd liao cuz got ppl got only 14 15 kind... hahaz..
ami got 52 or 58 i think.. and wara.. 50 60 ++ ??
we are currently in 1st place!!! hahaz.. how cool man...
anw min ning allowed me to "play" the air rifle... and i got a bull's eye out of 5 shots!!! nudbad at all!!! whoo hoo!!!
eh who can join soccer?!?! anw i bet tml will either be juz 7 players with no sub.. or totally juz not play.. hahz
~ 7/20/2005 10:15:00 PM ~
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
[SerieS of UnforTunate EveNts]
went to [sc] after sch... dad sorta like screwed up the date.. but he tot is the nurse nv record.. so we got the appointment fast...
i noe i'll nv hear gd news from tt place.. but... letting the truth dawn upon me makes me juz wanna cry... im juz freakin unlucky... i can nv be myself now..
brushing those away.. went back to sch for badminton.. i had troubled dad too much today.. forgetting to bring racket and wearing wrong pair of shoes.. ..
in the car.. i folded my gi.. all ready for today's passing out session.. den thinking of how to escape from badminton trg.. i realised i forgot to bring my racket!
so i msged dad to bring it out..
in the afternoon.. i realised i wore the wrong pair of shoes!!! so had to call dad to go home take bad shoes for me.. he came to sch to pick me up.. bot pizza for lunch.. den sent me to [sc].. after tt send me back sch again...
ran 4 rounds round the track.. i was feeling happy den.. i was happy most ppl turned up for trg today... and we were running together as a team.. i felt hopeful.. and anticipated trg from the new teacher - ms lim...
unfortunately.. freakin' shitty body din co-operate... kena feng mo... and i had to call dad to take me away...
i missed badminton.. and i missed judo... but today was a day which i had aniticipated for for very long already.. and i juz couldnt stay... y y y.. of all ppl.. y muz it be me?!?! ok.. even if so.. of all times.. y is it today!!!
i hate my life.. i hate myself.. i hate those disgusting things tt will pester me for eternalty.. am i juz gonna live with it?? cant anything be done???
today had been judo's passing out.. heard it was fun...
even if it wasnt gonna be fun.. i still would wanna be there for this special ceremony..
how often do we get to participate in passing out ceremonies..?? i've nv had one in my whole life in badminton... thus i really wanted to be able to attend one in judo.. i wouldnt have the luxury of next yrs.. =(
argh... and fj had to remind me the bet would not be valid cuz i din go... damn it.. i juz lost my chance of getting a name keychain?? i din even put it on my wishlist cuz i knew i confirm win la..
hmm.. actually i also dunno y fj wan to bet such a silly bet.. maybe u juz wanna make the name keychain for me rite??haha.. den y did u let me noe tt the bet's no more valid!!! haiz..
it's juz not fair how some unrelated things can get u down and destroy everything u once had.. or even the future tt once looked oh-so-bright...
~ 7/20/2005 08:58:00 PM ~
[reVivaL Round Of proJect SupersTar]
Omg!! Derrick sings like an AngEL...
im now watching superstar.. after hearing derrick sing... im totally stunned.. shocked..
i couldnt wait any longer to write it all down...
derrick paired with leon.. they sang "ai zhai zuan dong".. their performance was great..
and i think their mo qi is also like jue pei...
it's one of the best i've seen...
derrick's M1.. i dunno wad's the song title he sang.. but it was a slow and sad song...
usually the contestants dun manage these kinda songs well cuz either too slow or they no emotion...
but when i saw and heared derrick.. i felt overwhelmed by his emotions... he was really singing his heart out.. i could sense it!!! i felt like crying.. but i tot it was silly to do so.. so i held mengmeng tightly in my arms.. praying derrick's performance would go smoothly.. as i controlled myself from tearing..
the judges gave him gd comments.. mostly all also got say about his emtions..
fang zhong hua: in the video he asked for more points.. but he points he will get is bcuz he deserved it..
li fei hui: it touched him..
ye pei fen: ur singing got feel.. very gd
li wei song: u touched me.. i almost wanted to cry...i.. i cant say any more.. (omg.. i think this was juz classic.. it really shows how much effort derrick put in.. and the emotions he brings out.. u can really feel the sorrow... haiz.. thinking bout it.. he'd probably had some great da ji b4..i hope he's fine.. =P )
xu huan liang: ni gan dong dao wo... ...
actually had tt point when wei song gave his comments.. i almost cried again.. the atmosphere was juz so... sweet and blissful in a sort of happy-sad manner... i think derrick also almost wanted to cry too... haha
Go he wei jian!! wei jian wei jian wei jian all the way!!! i love ya!!!!
he got a score of 39 !!!!! damn high high high high!!!
deRrick.. ur already the sUperstar to mE!!! =)
leon sang next.. he sang a wang li hong's song again... hmm.. he's not bad.. the 2nd best there...has gd stage presence.. and his singing is quite nice too.. one of the judges said it would have been better if he had derrick's emotions standard... but overall he did well..
score: 38.5
k now sebstian and hagen are singing "dou jiang you tiao"
hmm.. if sebastian gets in.. im gonna vomit..
he started of shaky.. den at the high part he totally zao sia!!! omg..
i feel paiseh for him la.. he got no breadth.. cant pull the notes..
ok... im sensing he's trying to act cute.. but im not turned on at all la...
damn lousy!!! later hear wad the judges say.. it'll prove my point!!
hagen still not bad.. at least he's on track with the beats! and he doesnt try to act cute or wad la..
M3 sebastian singin "dang ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shui" now..
ok listen 1st..
uh oh.. he sang out of harmony... too nervous ba.. singing b4 the music..
wad the hell.. he think he some big shot? haha.. talking during only the music part.. gd idea.. but he din pull it off nicely..
fang zhong hua: singing too bitterly for a happy song
li fei hui: need to improve singing..
ye pei fen: cannot sing the feeling out.. keep cutting off notes.. (told u he short of breadth).. u lost the beat.. (SEE I SAID SO)
li wei song: look cute on stage.. i see u improving.. unfortunately.. u need much more..
xu xuan liang: cannot follow the pai zi.. if cannot follow.. bu pei zhou ge shou..
score : 26 (see so lousy.. i knew it.. i shd juz stop even talking bout this guy)
now it's hagen's turn.. singing "cheng qing you yi" dunno wad song..
he looks sad.. as in really sad.. he looked sad already at the start of the show..
ok.. he muz be.. cuz juz now in the video he said he always put in so much effort.. den dun uds y the outcome is lidat.. so quite disappointed..
oh i've heard this song b4.. nice.. hagen's singing it well.. i can sense the emotions...
he'd probably do not bad..
fang zhong hua: ur eyes has lost shine.. dun be so sad.. (i said so) ur qi fu not gd enough..
li fei hui: i dunno y u choose this song.. ur singing goes down instead of up.. i prefer u to be bubbly and energetic...
ye pei fen: yi bu chong xin.. look sad.. no joy... muz forget all these.. do ur best on stage
li wei song: i htink ur song choice is ok.. but ur singing not emotional enough.. still can do better
score: 30 (hmm.. i think at this time get 30 not very gd.. but not bad la.. at least got "3" )
haiz.. derrick is juz so cute..
haha.. he wanna zou "man" the lu xian..
but judges prefer him to go back to "ke ai" lu xian..
which eva way he goes..
he still looks cute to me.. and he juz rocks!!
~ 7/20/2005 06:34:00 PM ~
this is chocobo.. the brown PIG.. it's not a bear! everyone keeps calling it a beaR.. juz b cuz it's BroWn..~ -_-.. anw chocobo is pei wen's bday pressie from a few of us! that's jolly the white sheep and my precious BaBy menG!! =)
~ 7/18/2005 09:34:00 PM ~
Monday, July 18, 2005
[Floorball]
damn!
floorball match against aquila was such a waste!!
we were definitely the better team!! always pressurizing the opponent by having strong attacking positions!!
somehow we juz cant aim the goal!! hit left hit right.. but the centre???? danG!!
had a draw of 1-1.
played a 3min golden goal..
none scored..
moved to penalty shoot out...
damn sad damn sad!!!!
haiz.. i think it's better not to walk out to guard.. cuz u'd only be leaving a bigger space for the player to shoot in...
anw theirs and our1st 2 shots din make it..
i waas scared!!!
our house master came up and gave some advice
i decided to give it a try..
i dribbled dribbled the ball slowly to the front... den like very funny.. so i decided it was time to shoot.. i ScoopEd the ball forward... """GOAL"""" !!!!!
omG!! it woRkED!!! whee!!!
k.. happy not for long cuz aquila got theirs in too!!
but it was rolling on the floor kind????
SUCK man...
the next pegasus girl scored too!! proud of her!!! yay!!
but aqui scored too..
den i went again cuz clarissa scared.. haha..
i heard and saw wy cycling from above asking me to jia you..
quite funny..
GoAL!!!! yay! i got it in again!! phew..
at least i wont start blaming myself for not being able to help the team..
okay.. great.. aqui scored again too.. freaky shit..
haiz..
clarissa was next.. Ah!! she hit a rolling on the floor ball!!
the goalie stopped it from entering.. but she used her knees la..
we lost.. one of the pegasus guy came running up to complain to the referee tt the goalie had both knees on the floor.. (tt's not allowed arh? no wonder ean hong din do tt..)
he pointed out tt referee bias cuz he was frm aquila too..
oh ya hoR!! nv noticed tt lA!!
for one thing.. it's quite stupid for them to put a house member as referee when tt house is playing??
even if he is truely transparent..
but still "politically" it aint rite..
oh well.. nvm.. we accept defeat with gracious arms..
pegasus is roCks.. the players and ppl are nice..
well.. we will earn back our honour during captain's ball this friday!!!!
go dHs! go pEgasus!! mauahahah!
~ 7/17/2005 01:12:00 AM ~
Sunday, July 17, 2005
[1st and last judo team competition...?]
8 july 2005
1st and last judo team competition...?
today was girl's team judo com!
The line up was like this for the 1st match with nanyang jc:
light weight - nicole
middle weight - pei shan and shuting
heavy weight - dawn
open - fujing
reserves - me and ami
actually those 5 were fixed players... since on wed.. we had shiai to determine who would be in team and who would get to play... nicole, shuting, dawn and fujing were confirm in team.. and surprisingly me too.... den peishan, joanne and ami had to fite it out for a place in team.. ami and peishan got in...
as it was pre-arranged that nicole would fite in light weight, dawn and fujing open and heavy.. me, peishan and shuting had to fite also to see who would be playing... all this time.. 6 months in judo.. i had joined it in hope to gain sth from it... but unfortunately... i lost to peishan and shuting..
i was happy for them.. but deep inside..a bit sad.. for not being able to prove myself worthy.. for not being able to be both mentally and physically stronger...
anw b4 our bout with nyjc... vj players were rather nervous and scared... but we conforted and gave each other loads of encouragement... =)
the time came.. and the 5 main players entered the dojo.. ami and me and the guys stood outside and cheered hard...
nicole lost... den peishan lost.. i was so scared... had to win 3 out of 5.. next was shuting.. i tot there was still hope.. cuz shuting is all about winning.. wanting us to fite hard and not give up.. and keeps telling us to fite hard fite hard...( till quite irritating la.. but nvm.. ) ya and when i compare dawn and fujing to their opponents.. they were like how many times bigger la.. so i still saw some hope shinning in... however.. we lost... 0-5...
fj had hurt her other knee during her match.. and caused her pain and in turn her lost without much of a fite...
they came out of the dojo... i went over.. fj hugged dawn.. and they were crying.. i hugged them too.. and seeing tears rushing down my friends' eyes.. the sadness that i controlled in me took over.. and i cried too... ( we actually aimed to beat nyjc.. shuting and nicole had said they were the lousiest? so the lost was taken grievely...)
"my knee is gone!! my knee is gone!!" fj cried...i realised there was sth wrong.. she wasnt juz crying becuz of her lost.. it was her knee.. her cries seemed desperate and afraid.. probably the kind whereby u already have an injured knee.. and now the other is injured.. u feel like u've reached the point of end...
we helped her to a chair.. wrapped her knee and calmed her down.. paramedics came.. she felt beta already.. so she decided to stay on.. but they wouldnt allow her to fite anymore.. so sensei subed me in......
though delighted i was chosen.. but very not prepared.. cuz it was an unexpected twist of events.. and i had already succumb to the fact tt i would not be playing... ... ...
shuting had injured her arm too... and she kept on spraying it..
anw....inbetween the match against nyjc and the next.. there were hours of waiting.. i was very nervous.. stomach hurt.. had to go toilet a few times b4 i could finally clear my stomach.. i jumped and jumped.. stretched and stretched.. partly anticipating the next match.. partly not...
as i did not play individuals.. and the 1st match.. this coming match would be considered my 1st match infront of so many ppl.. in a recognised and important competition.. a team event...
i thought of alot of things ... .. wad if i lose? i'll malu myself? wad will others think? will i get ipponed? will i let the team down? will i be this, will i be that? wad if i cant do this, cant do that?
i expressed myself to some of the girls telling them i was scared.. fj and ami had both been my supporters.. encouraging me all the way...
after the other bouts had been played.. we had to face RJC next... we warmed up on the stage again.. den we went down to prepare ourselves..
while waiting for our turn, we practiced some techniques... i practiced doing morote.. asked peishan to resist.. and couldnt turn in anymore...
did the same to nicole.. and also couldnt turn in... den i was like.. how how how?? cuz during the real fite opponent sure resist!? den wad i do?!!? wad i do?!?!
"lynne dun think so much already... juz go in and fite like the usual stuff.." .. well i tot to myself.. "i usually dun win... if i play the same...the outcome's gonna be the same??"
practiced somemore on peishan again.. tried bending much much lower this time...ok.. stupid me.. i lost my balance not only once but at least 3 times la and landed on my butt...malu.. (ok like i CARE!!! *bleah* )
den i was how..?? i keep losing balance and falling backwards...
lian po came up and gave me some advice... instead of going in... step one leg in when the opponent takes a step front.. den can turn in more easily... how nice of him!! i was surprised..
there was still more waiting till our match.. actually not a lot more.. but it seemed long enough for me... i started jumping jumping again.. den from behind shafeeq 'scolded', "eh lynne! dun be scared la!" .. i turned round.. and "orh"... mumbling to myself " ya like so easy huh".. hahahz..
we did a final "VJ JUDO WHOOSH WHOOSH WHOOOSHH!" cheer and den it was our turn already....
Line up against RJC:
light - nicole
middle - peishan and shuting
heavy - dawn
open - me!!
tt was the way we walked in to the bout as well..
*nErVouS!!!*
both teams walked forward, bow, and den backed up...
nicole started 1st....( she's our best player.. i was counting alot on her..) but.. lost..
peishan next... (hopeful...) but..lost...
shuting.. lost also.. with an injured arm.. tt she had to be brought out for some medical attention
haiz.. okay.. there we go again.. lost.. all is lost.. there was not way to get anything already.. but maybe juz tt little bit of pride we'd left with... i shook dawn's hand.. conveying the msg to juz do all out and do ur best since win or lose.. makes no diff to our position anymore...
well.. she lost too..
=(
but the opponents were of high belt ranking..
green green green brown... vs us
green yellow yellow white..
my opponent was a yellow.. and me a white.. but tt was enough for me to be worried and all...
my turn came... i tot of wad i was gonna do now that i couldnt help the team to move on... probably juz to give it my all... and juz fite the very best i can.. i tot of badminton.. how can i apply confidence.. agreesiveness into judo? i dunno.. in badminton.. i can "soh!" when i score a point.. in judo? i dun even noe when a point is scored!?!!
no more time to think.. i found myself walking up to the dojo.. bowing.. and entering.. realising tt all eyes was on us.. but too occupied in the mind to notice.. bowed to opponent... and when the referee gave the command to start, i SCREAMED!!!!
"SSssSAaaaAahh...!!!" tt call juz came out from my mouth.. and it felt gd! i nv knew how i could shout anytime during matches.. but for this i somehow managed too.. once in the dojo.. i knew there was no more turning back.. i was prepared to scream and shout if need be.. especially if she pinned me down.. i was prepared to struggle like nv b4.. to kick my legs in the air.. to bridge.. to shout...to twist and turn as if it was my life at stake....( which i would consider really for life since it'll really be hard to breathe.. and if u couldnt get out.. u'd juz suffocate to death there... i dun wan tt to happen to me..)
i grabbed my opponent.. and we started tugging each other.. morote came into mind.. but i saw no chance of doing.. i tried oshoto.. again and again... i manage to get into the position.. but she was resisting hard... i couldnt care anymore.. since winning or losing did not matter.. i juz carried on pushing her with all my mite.. in hope she would fall...since i always hear ppl say complete the throw! at tt point.. it was 'juz keep on pushing' instead of 'get back to balace' since there wasnt any point doing tt... and BaMb! she fell !!! !!!
oMG!! it actually workED!!! got into groundwork which din work out and we got back into sparring.. "SahaaaaH!!!!!!" i shouted again... and tugged we did once more... oshoto was the only thing tt my body could react to do.. and so oshoto i did... and history repeats itself!! it really did! everything seemed the same to me.. same happenings.. same flashbacks.. same thoughts.. same reactions... and haha! i got another point from tt! groundwork failed and start from sparring again..
ha.. ya i screamed at the start of it yet again.. and my opponent screamed bacK!! louder than me i think.. ahhaz.. which i found shocking, funny and amusing at the same time... dunno y.. probably cuz of the experience nicole had told me about.. about her shouting also cuz her opponent shouted.. hahaz..
so we fought fought fought.. by den i was tired already.. afraid to get shido.. i faked attacks.. becuz if within 5 secs u dun attack.. opponent will get point.. so i juz kept kicking aimlessly.. without much intension of really throwing since there was not much chance and i had not much energy to waste on trying real throws all the time... of cuz.. the only thing i eva executed was oshoto.. but this time due to lack of stamina and concentration, i felt myself falling backwards.. and BAmB!.. my turn to fall this time.. luckily manage to face down abit.. so it wasnt a ippon.. my opponent did groundwork... i felt myself turning over.. somehow my legs managed to find some space to clutch one of her legs... i concentrated on grabbing that leg real hard.. cant let her escape if not i'd be dead... seeing tt we were going no where.. the referee called "mahde".. i saw his hand raised.. so i released my grip... but my opponent pinned me down further!! i was worried tt i saw wrongly... and looked at the referee again.. and he called stop a 2nd time.. but my opponent apparently din hear.. so i was like.. signalling to the referee to stop her cuz i was being crushed already... so eventually she din get any holding done and we got up...
standing in position to fite again.. the referee asked me to tuck my gi in... a gd timing indeed..as i rearranged my gi and tied my belt, i was desperately trying to catch my breath...the pause was certainly much needed as i was dying already.. though it was for only seconds b4 we had to start fiting again.. i was out of breath still... i stepped forward still breathing heavily...
i heard sensei shouting out 1min blahblahblah seconds left !! i took a quick glance at the score board.. i noe wad he means.. he means i had tt amt of time b4 i won.. but 1min + was still alot ... i had to hang on and not be thrown for tt amt of time! i cleared my exhausted and blurry mind.. decided to take a deep breath and shout again... "sSsAaahh!!!" it gave me a force to carry on... i wasnt gonna give up!! i could hear the ppl from outside shouting to me.... encouraging me.. cheering me on...
tired as i was.. im sure my opponent was too.. though she din really show it cuz she still could stand so straight while i was already bending down.... everything else tt happened after tt was a blur.. all i could remember was the fake fiting again.. and den happend to go to groundwork.. where i faked groundworking as well.. ahahz.. i knew i had the strenght and energy no more to go about to turn her over.. so i juz pulled and push which eva way the situation required.. trying
my best out of my no more strenghtness to get into holding.. and when my opponent tried to do groundwork on me as i held on to her arm for dear life! no way was i gonna let her turn me over!! i din really try to do much here except to hold on to her... no counter no escaping.. juz defend as long as she tried to turn me...as to no avail.. the referree "mahde" us again and start sparring again... this time heard sensei shout how many how many secs left.. i glanced at the timer.. prob 30+ 40+ secs... still so long?? i wondered if i could hold on...
the fite this time was totally removed from my memory.. my mind has recollections of wad happened... too drained already... or i probably jumbled up the points of wad happened... anw time was up and i won!! though i realised it only later den the referee came to stop wadeva we were doing... and i heard some cheering.. YES! i've done it! the longest 3 mins of my life... but i pulled through! though tired like anything... i was elated!
bowed to my opponent.. den a grp bow.. and left the dojo...
once out.. i bended down to catch my breath... fj was beside me.. said she was proud of me.. =) .. as i walked back.. felt a pat on the head.. "nice one".. another on the shoulder, "well done" .... i managed a smile...
at the moment.. i felt ..... overjoyed?... loved?... recognised?... i dunno how to describe it.. but it was a kind of recognision tt i've longed for.. though it only lasted for secs.. but the feeling was heart-warming and surprisingly calming too...
the vj team gathered on the stairs of the stage where sensei talked to us... he claimed that it was the worst match he've eva seen us play.. both guys and girls.. except probably for shafeeq and me ( but to me, most of them fought really hard.. though defeated..but if they have tried their best..its a consolation already..) anw i gotta admit tt shaf played real hard and well yesterday... and won..
he went on to explain it's was not becuz my opponent was yellow belt tt's y i won..( since the others played with higher ranking belters ).. but becuz of our fighting spirits.. i'm glad he said it that way (actually i also think i won cuz she's probably a fake yellow belter or sth..)
i certainly felt joy and acknowledgment when he said that.. but it also dawned on me that we lost and there wasnt much to be happy about anymore..
well.. we reap wad we soe.. sensei and kenneth says that the outcome was wad we deserve.. since the effort we put in is not comparable to other schs.. yea.. tt i have to agree too... but as long as we put in our best efforts.. i dun think we will have any regrets... so yea.. there's next yr rite? if we train hard we can join the competition.. and now im still fickle about whether im gonna drop to social, quit judo.. or carry on now...
~ 7/17/2005 12:28:00 AM ~
judo seniors are retiring!!! the old ppl... haiz.. come back for trg often ok!!
anw last wed trg.. had elections..
the results :
captian-izam
vicecap-shuting
secretary-peishan
treasurer-juan cheng
quartermaster-jason
quoting stuff from fj with prActICAL chanGes:
its the last time the seniors will b training w us
n the guys were sparred w girls
n kenneth sparred w lynne
muahahahas.
i was totally laughing my ass off when he ask her to spar w him ( yea she and alot others i could SEE!!! grrr... )
n sensei noes about dawn's rumours
lol. n dawn in bid to get her revenge told sensei bot lynne's rumours
n sensei teased lynne
( all thanks to stupid dawn.. horrible pig.. pull me into trouble when i nv hai her )
vv funneh lah. hahaaha
also sparred with shafeeq...
it was my 1st time getting thrown so horribly..
flying into the air..
pivoting about my head..
so many times all together..
ouch...
we took grp pictures after everything..
~ 7/17/2005 12:27:00 AM ~
1 big judo family +)
~vee jae cee judo~
~ 7/17/2005 12:27:00 AM ~
seniors pro la.. so much achievements within 2 yrs!
~vee jae cee judo~
~ 7/17/2005 12:26:00 AM ~
the guy's team
~vee jae cee judo~
~ 7/17/2005 12:26:00 AM ~
we are a happy team
~vee jae cee judo~
~ 7/17/2005 12:26:00 AM ~
the girl's team
~vee jae cee judo~
